thought // the question

"One is always tempted to be unfaithful to one’s own country. To have imagination is inevitably to be dissatisfied with where you live…in our wanderlust, we are lovers looking for consummation." || Elisabeth Eaves ||


(Have you ever get out of your comfort zone for a while, taking a step back, and start having these questions about life? Things start to seem a bit more clear and yet, we can't help but somehow get drifted farther away. 

Those questions and the process of questioning life as we know it.. is what I look for whenever I get out of my comfort zone and shake things up. It's not always about travelling to a place far away but that particular thing usually does the trick. There will be the first one week when everything I see and do start to feel new and interesting. Then, there comes the gloom, the loneliness, and the questions. The more I learn something new.. the more I feel like I don't know enough. To me, it feels like drinking salt-water: the more I drink, the more I get thirsty.  

The distance allows me to think about life: how I want to live it and imagine it to be. I feel like I need more time to just read and digest all the books and ideas, rethink about what I have learned, and even reconsider my long-buried urge to go back to school. There is a need to learn something new~ to share exciting thoughts and ideas with friends. To think about love and the longing feeling to go home when we are away. It makes me question about loneliness and independence; and how to grow up without growing apart from your friends.  At the end, it leaves me with a wish to travel more often and shake things up in my comfort zone. Then again, don't you have to keep on moving to stay alive?)